Saturday, June 03, 2006
hi... after so long
hmmm... the Liu Ting now is an entirely different person.... I was talking to An that day...i told him something... he thinks its very interesting... i told him 4 things i don't believe in... love, luck,hope and myself....
Not that i don't believe in love, but i just don't believe i'll ever have it in my life... to me love is for people who are lucky, pretty and intelligent...as for me i have none of the above so i don't believe that i'll ever have love. I have to get used to doing things alone, watch movies alone, shopping alone, eat alone n etc... one day all my friends will get married, have their own family... i have to get used to doing things alone... need to kind of save up if not no one to buy flat to stay when i'm old.
Luck.... i have always been v unlucky sibnce young.....
Hope... please don't tell me about hope.... i don't believe in hope... the more i hope for, the more disappointed i am... don't make me sad by giving me hope okie?
myself... i'm utterly disappointed with myself.... i have zero confidence now..... i lost them or rather actually i don't have it at all.....
I'm okie.... not sad... just that i'm not happy at all.. when you lose something so dear to you... will you be happy again?
I'm so so so tired.... i don't wish to hurt anyone... but everything i do now seems to hurt another person.... really feel like dying..... PP told me not to think about it.... but... its impossible.... i don't understand how can PP don't feel anything.....
happi_cat @ 1:53 PM
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