| I miss you my dearest friend cum teacher... i really really miss you. You were always there when i needed someone the most, at those cross roads to guide me. Without you around now, i feel very lost very lost... i'm very scare too, i really don't know what to do. But i promise you i'll try my best to find the correct direction, to excel in my life... to be the excellent friend and student of yours....i'll make you proud, be that main cast you always wanted me to be.... i'll live strong just like my name.... So many things have occured since your death... especially recently.... i almost wanted to give up... with everything, including my life... But i don't know why the sudden thought of you made me stronger... i felt your presence... telling me not to give up, like you always do.... no matter how badly i perform, you will give me your widest smile and biggest encouragement to keep me going... i know i can never see you again in this life.... but i know one day i'll see you again, so i have to keep going and do something fruitful in life so that when i meet you again, i can tell you that i have done my best in my life and i have made you proud... I'll try to forgive, forgive this friend of mine who hurt me so much.... now i realised why people say that bad things happen all in one go.... when i know the reason why this friend make friend with me... i feel so disappointed not with the friend, but with myself.... for being so dumb... always thought of this person as my best friend... didn't know that all this long i have been used.... Well as for relationship.... i've let go... really... i have no more fantasy for relationship anymore... i guess its just not a game for me to play... i guess i'll not play it for very long... this 10 years i'll focus on my plan... bless me okie? |
This 10 years, i'll learn to be a better person, more street smart, prettier (i hope) and becoming more successful.... the Liu Ting that my family will be proud of... the student that you are proud of, okie???
Rest in peace.... my dearest friend.... you will always live in my heart...