| well.... if anyone has read my previous entry... living in misery.... hmm.... if you think i'm going to kill myself... i won't.... don't worry.... life is too precious to end it that way.... haha! I say say only lah.... you think i'll really kill myself meh... no lah.... actually i was thinking if i put it there to see if anyone will msg me or something telling me how to die... haha... but don't have lei... not like what the news said before... usually people show that they want to kill themselves on the blog, someone will approach them and tell them how to do it??? *disappointed* haha! I had a very bad tuesday. I was very traumatised on Tuesday morning.... i never feel so sad, depressed, scared before in my life.... so scary okie???? Never attended such tutorial before.... almost died in it.... i cried non-stopped for 1 hr after the tutorial.... i think people will think someone died or something lor.... i felt so disappointed with myself can??? performed so badly in the tutorial.... studies is my life and i still give this type of work..... so sad... so sorry bell, i must have scared you..... "there is nothing that pure honey water cannot solve" hmm thats what someone told me.... talked to him for like 2 hrs online.... i told him what happened... he understands and taught me how to go about solving the problem and forget about what happened.... i don't know why somehow he always appear at the right moment to help me out.... thanks :).... We talked on the phone too... feel so surprised that he really called me even though he is going to have morning class the next day and was very tired.... we talked... i feel better after that... not so tense le... thanks!!! |