| It has been n years since i last blogged.... too busy with orientation stuff, school work to blog... excuses... maybe... many things have happened for the pass 2 months.... Orientation was a huge success, made many new friends... friends like jonathan, andy, lingyin.... Many new and soon to be couples in hall... like CJ n Steph, Mindy and Eugene, Josh n WT.... I'm also moving towards a new chapter in my life.... " Will you choose something you like or something good for you? " I chosen something good for me... and slowly, it became something i like.... hmm... but... the something good for me seems to be turning into something bad for me.... how? Maybe i'm thinking too much... no matter what happens i'll try my best to maintain it.. as it is very hard to find something i like n good for me.... Saw someone a few days ago... after a very long time... someone who used to be my close friend... but we are miles apart now... someone that said i'm his good friend.... only come and look for me when hes free... never reply to smses and phone calls... only look for you when hes bored or no one else is able to entertain him... i feel like a toy... abandoned toy of a boy... unattractive toy that a boy will play when he has nothing to do or when hes sick of his new toys... Think theres something wrong with me... becoming more and more emotional... " The ability to cry is a gift from God to soothe the broken heart.... " I feel like a caged animal... there will be food and water to ensure i survive... people who pass by the cage might take a look at me... or will just pass by the cage without noticing me... people will come n talk to me when they are free till nothing to do.... who will really spending time with me.... myself maybe.... Everyone is so busy... i don't want to trouble them.... but sometimes they can just spend a few hours with me.. thats all i ask for... but sometimes i don't even yet a few minutes... well, life still goes on.... i';ll learn to be strong.... |