Thursday, June 09, 2005
Definition of happiness....
Define happiness, i'm sure everyone has his or her own definition..... well as for me, i'm still in search of my personal definition. Hmm, everytime i ask myself, hey are you happy? Sometimes i'll tell myself, hey man you have a perfect family, great friends, able to manage your studies, therefore you should be happy. Am i really happy? i'm not sure... i always feel that something is lacking in my life to have hundred percent happiness.... Haha... at this point, i know those reading my blog sure have some funny ideas one... like "what you lack of is love".... haha but well i know myself that its not the thing that is missing.... i don't believe in love anymore, maybe i just don't have the luck in love... it only brings me sadness and pain....Right now i just want to search for the last thing to complete my definition of happiness...
Theres also many what-if in life... life is filled with uncertainties... the worst senerio will be "what if i die tml?" If i really die tml, my dear friends please don't cry.... remember that i want everyone to stay happy always and once in awhile think of those happy moments i spent with you guys and move on with life.... everyone will die eventually, i just happen to be one of the earlier ones.... oh yah and one more thing, help me take care of my snoopies okie.... i'll miss all of you....
Sometimes i yearn for holidays badly, but sometimes i just hate holidays... When i'm free i will start to think of stuff, especially those sad stuff.... that day when i read my message history with him i felt so sad.... we used to talk everyday online... he used to cheer me up when i'm sad, entertain me when i'm bored, talk crap with me to make me happy when i feel super stressed out with activities.... but now.... he don't talk to me anymore :(. How i wish i can tur back the clock and go back to those times again.... but i know it can never happen.... i miss those days...
There are somethings in life, the more you fear of losing them, the more you will lose them... the more you try to hold on to them, the more they will go away.... sometimes we just have to accept those hard cold facts. Reality are always hard to swallow, but we have to learn to do that. I'm trying my best to accept them and also in search of my very own definition of happiness....
happi_cat @ 4:25 PM
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