Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Happy : )

I has been another long long time since i last blogged. I guess no one really will read this, haha, better still, I can write what ever i want! Saw someone online today, stupidly went to look at the profile picture. It was a nice picture taken with a nice background. Guess the person must be pretty happy. Happy for the person. : ) Hope you are happy everyday! All the best in your future endeavours! I''ll always pray for you.

Love,
Ting!

happi_cat @ 10:31 PM

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Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day!

It has been a long long time since i last blogged. I realised i only blogged on special occassions... for example Valentine's day. For me, its just another day, wondering how is it for him? Celebrating with a date? New girl? Just wanna wish you happy Valentine's Day! Hope you are happy! I'll be happy too! Exams drawing near, jia you! All the best! I believe you can do it! So funny i type as though he will read like that.... I'll pray for you! :)

happi_cat @ 10:42 PM

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Saturday, August 25, 2007

Its one of those days again....

Its one of those days again.... tears start to fall and heart starts to feel the pain... Its one of those many days that my heart is aching.... i miss him....

happi_cat @ 11:37 PM

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Sunday, August 12, 2007

让爱自由

It has been ages since i last blogged... i wonder if anyone bothers to visit my blog....

"If you really love the person, you should set the person free..." I like this quote... but easier said than done. I don't know if i have moved on... but i guess he certainly has done so. Hope he is living happily and enjoying his everyday to the fullest. Happy Belated Birthday! Wishing you a birthday thats real special just like you.

I realised i don't cry as much as before.... but i still think of him once in a while, especially when i see California fitness and seafood buffet ads. On special days like his birthday or rag day i think of him too. I dream of him once in awhile. I know he will never come back to me, but i only wish to dream of him once in a while, i'll be happy. I'll also be happy if hes happy living his life... is that call moved on? I don't know

When i see couples holding hands i used to be jealous of them... but now i'll only envy them. I can't hold anybody's hand now, but at least i used to hold the hand of the person i love before... :)

I guess i have not totally moved on... but at least i'm making progress... "Liu Ting, Go go go!"

-OOO- To love once and only one...

happi_cat @ 9:13 PM

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Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas to you....

I will never forget how miserable i felt last Christmas... this year's Christmas is still the same... I know i will never find the courage to talk to you anymore so i shall write down all the things i want to tell to here... i know you will never read it, but well i'll still like to write down....

Happy Birthday... Hope all your wishes come true. Hope you are happy and have already found your true happiness in life. I wish you all the best in everything you do....

Merry Christmas... Have a blessed and enjoyable Christmas. May you and your love ones enjoy the festive season...

Happy New Year... Hope 2007 will be a happening and smooth sailing year for you! May you and your loved ones be healthy and happy in the coming year. I'm sure all your new year wishes will come true....

I'll be happy if you are happy... so you must be happy okie?

happi_cat @ 12:13 AM

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Liu Ting... you did the right thing....

This problem has been with me for quite a bit of time... i finally solved it... by leaving.... Sorry i'm no fan of triangles, i i don't wish to hurt anyone.... i know there will never be happines in my life, i don't want anyone to be like me... no happines and not believe in love.... please be happy, make her happy too... make her the happiest person in the world... promise me.... Trust me.... i'm not sad, i won't cry, cause i'm Liu Ting.....

Thanks for all the happy memories, all the support and all the encouragement... i'll bring all these things with me... i'll be a stronger person....

happi_cat @ 11:56 AM

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

hmmm....

Can i borrow courage from someone? I seriously need it.... I know i need more than that to overcome the trap... i'm trapped! I seriously hope you will read this.... but i know you will never read this cause u don't know about the blog....

Its my fault... i shouldn't have started it... i feel bad.... You told me not to... but its wrong. "You have to be cruel to be kind..." I seriously think its true... can you don't be so nice to me.... the nicer you are the more i'll rely on you.... i know i have to learn to be independent again.... i'll try my best!!!

现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我真正的解脱

happi_cat @ 8:04 PM

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Monday, June 26, 2006

definition of happiness....

Do you consider happiness on the expense of others happiness? Sometimes i got this urge to be selfish and not care about other people's feelings and just proclaim that happiness to be mine. Sometimes i really hate myself for doing that... i put myself into the shoes on that poor soul and not want that to happen to me. Maybe i did sometime bad in my previous life or i just simply not a good person, thats why God wants me to pay for that debt by losing the most precious thing in life.....

I thanked pink for walking into my life, when i feel so low.... when i wanted so much to give up my life... when i about to close that door that connects me to the rest of the work... Pink gave me that cup of special honey water.... the honey water stopped the fountain from flowing and some strength to go on till the last day of my life.... Pink is that angel...

I know that angel will leave me one day.... angel will not be with me forever.... in fact this angel does not belong to me.... i have taken something that not belong to me... i feel bad not because i have taken something i shouldn't have taken... i feel bad because i don't feel guilty or bad at all.... i have changed... i'm not that little girl anymore.... i'm someone who i don't even know who i am....

The only thing i can do is to get enough courage to be independent..... in fact i need more than courage to leave that trap.... i don't know if i become weaker or is it that i have become more expressive..... Ting, for you and Snoopy, you have to do it!

happi_cat @ 10:00 PM

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Saturday, June 03, 2006

hi... after so long

hmmm... the Liu Ting now is an entirely different person.... I was talking to An that day...i told him something... he thinks its very interesting... i told him 4 things i don't believe in... love, luck,hope and myself....

Not that i don't believe in love, but i just don't believe i'll ever have it in my life... to me love is for people who are lucky, pretty and intelligent...as for me i have none of the above so i don't believe that i'll ever have love. I have to get used to doing things alone, watch movies alone, shopping alone, eat alone n etc... one day all my friends will get married, have their own family... i have to get used to doing things alone... need to kind of save up if not no one to buy flat to stay when i'm old.

Luck.... i have always been v unlucky sibnce young.....

Hope... please don't tell me about hope.... i don't believe in hope... the more i hope for, the more disappointed i am... don't make me sad by giving me hope okie?

myself... i'm utterly disappointed with myself.... i have zero confidence now..... i lost them or rather actually i don't have it at all.....

I'm okie.... not sad... just that i'm not happy at all.. when you lose something so dear to you... will you be happy again?

I'm so so so tired.... i don't wish to hurt anyone... but everything i do now seems to hurt another person.... really feel like dying..... PP told me not to think about it.... but... its impossible.... i don't understand how can PP don't feel anything.....

happi_cat @ 1:53 PM

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Monday, March 13, 2006

10 years plan

I think many people think my10 years plan is very extreme... very cruel to myself... well i think its practical... when u have nothing to look forward to... you should do something like that.... My primary aim is to earn lots n lots of money.... i know its not very like me... since i always think money wise, earn enough to live can already, but well... since i have nothing to look forward to in life, mind as well earn more money right... i know money cannot buy all the things in life, but well i can buy most of the things.... i'll use the money to buy comfort for my family, go on world tours, for my master's education and to help people in need.... haha... i even told an-cle that i'll go mountain climbing at some mountain in europe and bring one rock back for him as wedding gift.... i even promise to be his son's god mother..... then take care of his son when his son come over to Singapore to study....! I want to go overseas and work.. leave Singapore for awhile... i'm so sick fo Singapore... i egven hope to leave Sinagpore forever,,,, but cannot be so selffish lah... maybe 5 years lor.... must come back n take care for my family.... I'm going to stay single for the next 10 years too... or maybe for the rest of my life..... i will appreciate it if people will stop wishing me that i'll find the one soon... cause i'll not find or go and find.... just wish that i'll be successful and earn lots of money okie? I'll be happy lah.... if i can earn lots of money! Cause i don't believe in some things in life already.... i will be happy helping people and touring the world.... and maybe play with my god son n daughters... hehe P.S VM: don't ask me to go and swim in swimming pool i've phobia of water.... i'm going to run forever!

happi_cat @ 4:22 PM

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Monday, February 27, 2006

I miss you, my dearest friend////

I miss you my dearest friend cum teacher... i really really miss you. You were always there when i needed someone the most, at those cross roads to guide me. Without you around now, i feel very lost very lost... i'm very scare too, i really don't know what to do. But i promise you i'll try my best to find the correct direction, to excel in my life... to be the excellent friend and student of yours....i'll make you proud, be that main cast you always wanted me to be.... i'll live strong just like my name.... So many things have occured since your death... especially recently.... i almost wanted to give up... with everything, including my life... But i don't know why the sudden thought of you made me stronger... i felt your presence... telling me not to give up, like you always do.... no matter how badly i perform, you will give me your widest smile and biggest encouragement to keep me going... i know i can never see you again in this life.... but i know one day i'll see you again, so i have to keep going and do something fruitful in life so that when i meet you again, i can tell you that i have done my best in my life and i have made you proud... I'll try to forgive, forgive this friend of mine who hurt me so much.... now i realised why people say that bad things happen all in one go.... when i know the reason why this friend make friend with me... i feel so disappointed not with the friend, but with myself.... for being so dumb... always thought of this person as my best friend... didn't know that all this long i have been used.... Well as for relationship.... i've let go... really... i have no more fantasy for relationship anymore... i guess its just not a game for me to play... i guess i'll not play it for very long... this 10 years i'll focus on my plan... bless me okie?

This 10 years, i'll learn to be a better person, more street smart, prettier (i hope) and becoming more successful.... the Liu Ting that my family will be proud of... the student that you are proud of, okie???

Rest in peace.... my dearest friend.... you will always live in my heart...

happi_cat @ 4:14 PM

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

Hmmm.... i think i stayed in the lab too much

well.... if anyone has read my previous entry... living in misery.... hmm.... if you think i'm going to kill myself... i won't.... don't worry.... life is too precious to end it that way.... haha! I say say only lah.... you think i'll really kill myself meh... no lah.... actually i was thinking if i put it there to see if anyone will msg me or something telling me how to die... haha... but don't have lei... not like what the news said before... usually people show that they want to kill themselves on the blog, someone will approach them and tell them how to do it??? *disappointed* haha! I had a very bad tuesday. I was very traumatised on Tuesday morning.... i never feel so sad, depressed, scared before in my life.... so scary okie???? Never attended such tutorial before.... almost died in it.... i cried non-stopped for 1 hr after the tutorial.... i think people will think someone died or something lor.... i felt so disappointed with myself can??? performed so badly in the tutorial.... studies is my life and i still give this type of work..... so sad... so sorry bell, i must have scared you..... "there is nothing that pure honey water cannot solve" hmm thats what someone told me.... talked to him for like 2 hrs online.... i told him what happened... he understands and taught me how to go about solving the problem and forget about what happened.... i don't know why somehow he always appear at the right moment to help me out.... thanks :).... We talked on the phone too... feel so surprised that he really called me even though he is going to have morning class the next day and was very tired.... we talked... i feel better after that... not so tense le... thanks!!!

happi_cat @ 9:01 PM

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Monday, January 23, 2006

Last blog??

When he walked into my life, he injected meaning into my life. When he left... he took away the meaning as well as my happines with him. I never love anyone like how i love him. Time will heal all wounds?? Well... to me, time will not make me forget... i'll not forget.... To love a person is to let the person happy.... since being together will make him miserable and sad, i'll just let go. Since he is better off without me, i'll not go and dsturb him, i'll just let him go and let him find his truely happy happiness. People will think i'm stupid, but i know that for a very long time, my heart will not love another person. I will not be happy for a very long time. To me, the aim of the day is to end the day as soon as possible, theres nothing to look forward to. Things like catching a movie or meeting up with my friends is to make the time pass faster. I try to deceive myself that doing those activities i'll feel better and be happier... but actually i'm not.... life is very meaningless for now.... i think i'll not blog for a very long time... cause everyday to me is just like every other day.... Don't worry people, i won't kill myself.... i will live and keep on going for the people who love me, my family and friends... i cannot be happy, but i hope they can be happy.... i hope he will be happy.... Please don't ask me to forget and not think... i know its impossible.... I may stay single for very long... cause i'll not love another person for very long... maybe i'll get into a relationship, if theres someone that really love me like how i love him.... its better for one person to be sad than two person.... i'll try my best to like the person... until one day the person realise he no longer love me.... i'll let go again... [OOO]- To love once and only one......

happi_cat @ 9:50 AM

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Friday, January 06, 2006

Happy New Year!!!

Hey its a new year... everything shall start afresh!!! Well, new year resolution... to become smarter, fitter and prettier... haha... Well, i'll exericse more often, study smarter and buy more clothes... haha...

Well, feeling better now... but just that it feels weird seeing him again... don't know why... it feels very funny lor.... sometimes i don't feel like doing laundry... or feel like walking another way to the other wing to find people... cause don't want to see him....

Feeling quite sad... cause my fyp stuf is not as smooth as i wanted it to be. Furthermore, Pacey left for US liao... gonna be a lonely sem without him.... no more tv partners liao... i just need to find more stuff to occupy time...

I told my friends that in the coming 10 years i'm gonna stay single. I aspire to be the most eligible, attractive and happy single... haha... for now its 10 years, but rules may change, who knows.... haha... see if i ever can meet the right one.... i leave it to fate....

happi_cat @ 3:27 PM

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

Time will heal all wounds....

Time will heal all wounds... really??? Well... why is it that the wound hurts more and more... Tine really pass very slowly and everything seems so meaningless to me. I hate the morning just wake up feeling, cause i'll be thinking about nothing except that something...

I tried my best to find stuff to do, but i just can't seem to put my heart in them.... even my favourite TV shows... i can't seem to enjoy them the way i did last time. I feel like killing myself...

I want to see him, but i'm scared.... i want to talk to him, but i'm scared too... why am i so timid??? Can someone please tell me what to do?

happi_cat @ 9:43 PM

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Friday, December 23, 2005

Results out...

Hmm... results were out yesterday, i did exceptionally well this sem, got 3As, 2Bs and 1C... got my first ever A plus in nus... was exceptionally happy yesterday... trying to move on with my life... but the harder i try, the harder i find to move on....

I'm very irritated with myself, the first think i'll think about when i wake up everyday if him.... argh... lucky its the holidays....if not i don't know how i can study... i seriously don't know how long i need to get over it... i realised i'm not as strong as i think i am... i thought i can really let go, but apparently thats not the case....

I want to find something to occupy time... anyone with suggestions please tell me okie? Well, i just hoped the sem will come asap so that i can just study my days away.....

happi_cat @ 11:09 AM

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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

2nd day...

I am feeling the same, mixed feeling.... the more i ask myself not to think about it, the more i'll go and think. i'll be thinking how is he feeling now... whether he will feel a little sad too... i try to keep myself busy, do dissertation proposal, find something to do, but time still seems to crawl slowly... taking results tmr, my heart don't feel anything....

Can someone please tell me what to do? I realised i cannot just put down like that, i'll still think of him... i still like him to some extend, like what niangeee said is true, i'll feel the same way now.... I want to know more about him, how is he like and stuff... i very much want to talk to him now... know what he is doing now, how is he feeling now.... argh... i'm going crazy... i also don't know whether he is as enthu as me or not.... or he just want to give up le....

I really need something to kill time and not think so much... can someone tell me what i can do?? My mind still keep thinking about him..... how???

happi_cat @ 10:08 AM

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Mixed feeling...

Having a mixed feeling now... feeling relieved after the breakup, but somehow i feel a sense of lost.... i'm still very bad at dealing with losses.... after Mr Lim's death, i seems to be bad at everything... my studies sucks, my life is messed up, i seemed to be out of track, i have no focus and aim in my life. Hmm... since i have so much time in the world now, i shld do something about it, find back a focus... get involve and live my life to the fullest!

I have straighten out my thought and realised that loving someone is not so easy, i have not reached the stage yet. I realised i don't really love him, how to love someone when u have zero knowledge of him??? I think i like him.... like him alot bah...... try to let go... start afresh... start to get to know him all over again.... maybe like what my niangeee said to me, if he is the one, he will be there waiting for you.... she asked me not to pinned too much hopes on him again.... well i know that... i won't think so much for now.... i need a break from all this before i start to think about it again.... cause i know that being hurt by the same person twice the pain will be double...

To let go is not easy but i just have to try.... try my best... i cannot let the rest of the people down, my family and my friends... they will still be there for me.... i cannot make them sad right?? I already lost something, i don't want to lose anything again....

I guess i have learnt a lesson, to understand before i step into any relationship... not only from relationship for everything, for my fyp too i realised... was typing the proposal, i realised i don't understand what i was typing... i just have to start all over again, if not i'll die doing something i don't know.... and its scary too... I have to learn to be more expressive... caring for someone is one thing, telling is another... i just i have to tell people that i care sometimes.... if not they will never know... learnt a valuable lesson from this... so thats not too bad... i grew up le.... somehow... not the little girl anymore....

happi_cat @ 4:34 PM

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Feeling much better.....

Hmm.... breaking up is not so scary after all.... i feel much better actually... we are able to talk freely like in the past..... and we are friends for now..... just let nature takes it course bah.... don't think too much......

happi_cat @ 12:05 AM

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Sunday, December 04, 2005

It has been a long time.....

Time flies, its December already, haha... i just finished my exams.... now talking a break from all the books and glue myself in front of the televison to relax. Hmm... December... my favourite month, cause its my birthday month!!! Heehee!! Hmm. i don't usually have massive celebration. I like to help my friends celebrate birthday. as for my own, i don't really celebrate. But for this year i'm going ubin!!! Yay!!! I love ubin.... its a place with my fondest memories!!! I miss the smell, the sound and the sight of ubin... can't wait to go there... Please bless ubin with good weather.... hope most of my friends can go.... :P Shall blog after my birthday... going to watch star award....

happi_cat @ 6:55 PM

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Saturday, November 05, 2005

Where are you my happy self?

Since don't know when i seem to lost my happier self. I don't seem to be as happy as last time.... what happen? I cannot seem to laugh the way i did last time. I keep telling myself, i'm happy, but am i really happy? If you find out one day that the thing you like is the reason why you are sad, what will you do? Give up? Or just keep it there.... i'm really very tired and want to give up, but i just cannot bring myself to do that.... haiz... i'm just dumb....

happi_cat @ 9:07 PM

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

Its the little things you do that make me happy...

Hmm... its been sometime since i last blogged. Hmm... i have been quite busy with everything, school work, friends, family.....etc, etc. Well, i have been quite happy these days although i have tonnes of deadlines. Firstly, Mr Guo remembered me.... we are going out to watch movie! Then is my dearest panda talked to me! Hes in OCS now, he say hes going to invite me to his commision parade... haha... never been to one before, brother still so young, somemore no boyfriend from OCS.... haha... i want to go and see... so excited! Went to watch RH production yesterday, its quite nice... the female lead reminded me of Eunice... haha... Jo met him yesterday, i wonder what they talked about... hmm.... anyway, it has been happy happy week for me! I don't need people to do big things for me... as long as they remember me and do little things for me once in a while... i'll always be a happy cat!!!!

happi_cat @ 7:51 PM

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Sunday, October 02, 2005

Another week has gone pass....

Hmm... another week has gone pass... what have i achieved out of this week? Did my hr projects, revised my law notes, wrote abit of my law term paper, readings, play badminton, went out with dear, celebrated Meng Hui's birthday.... Quite fruitful... Hmm... it always feels great after meeting up with OACians....

I miss those times in OAC... training in the rain, dinner after activities, camping in ubin... doing crazy things that normally people will not do... i think only we will do this kind of thing... " in an everchanging world, i hope that one thing remains unchange... our friendship" Don't know why, when we all are in university, we cherish this friendship more than ever, treasure all the time we spent together....

Hmm... i also have decided on what i want for my birthday... i want to go Ubin to camp!!!! Xiao Yun and Jun Hong think its fine too... i'm inviting my hall friends to go too... see if they are interested or not... think dear will faint if he gets to know my plan... i want to go puaka and take photos then camp at mamam beach... Matthias has reserved that day for me.. i hope he can go too... Jin Hao as well... so long since i last saw him...

Overall quite happy with my life now... learning to let go of some things really make me feel better... learning to accept some facts that some things are just meant to be that way... make me grow up abit... just part of a life process....

happi_cat @ 2:36 PM

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Saturday, September 17, 2005

Finally... start blogging again

It has been n years since i last blogged.... too busy with orientation stuff, school work to blog... excuses... maybe... many things have happened for the pass 2 months.... Orientation was a huge success, made many new friends... friends like jonathan, andy, lingyin.... Many new and soon to be couples in hall... like CJ n Steph, Mindy and Eugene, Josh n WT.... I'm also moving towards a new chapter in my life.... " Will you choose something you like or something good for you? " I chosen something good for me... and slowly, it became something i like.... hmm... but... the something good for me seems to be turning into something bad for me.... how? Maybe i'm thinking too much... no matter what happens i'll try my best to maintain it.. as it is very hard to find something i like n good for me.... Saw someone a few days ago... after a very long time... someone who used to be my close friend... but we are miles apart now... someone that said i'm his good friend.... only come and look for me when hes free... never reply to smses and phone calls... only look for you when hes bored or no one else is able to entertain him... i feel like a toy... abandoned toy of a boy... unattractive toy that a boy will play when he has nothing to do or when hes sick of his new toys... Think theres something wrong with me... becoming more and more emotional... " The ability to cry is a gift from God to soothe the broken heart.... " I feel like a caged animal... there will be food and water to ensure i survive... people who pass by the cage might take a look at me... or will just pass by the cage without noticing me... people will come n talk to me when they are free till nothing to do.... who will really spending time with me.... myself maybe.... Everyone is so busy... i don't want to trouble them.... but sometimes they can just spend a few hours with me.. thats all i ask for... but sometimes i don't even yet a few minutes... well, life still goes on.... i';ll learn to be strong....

happi_cat @ 11:48 AM

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

Some things are just hard to explain....

Well, some things are just hard to explain..... for example, feelings for another person. When the person likes you, you might not like that person. When you start liking the person, the person may not like you anymore. So do you try to like a person when the person likes you or just leave it to fate? Hmmm.... well maybe i think too much..... haha!

happi_cat @ 9:23 AM

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Happy BFC meeting

Yay! i had another happy bfc meeting!!!!!! Well, i'm glad to see CJ with us! Hmm.... von voyage, tweety! hope you have a nice time at home! Well, thought i didn't sleep well last night, but i'm happy now! BFC rulez! Well going for dry run later... sian.... i want to sleep... haha!

happi_cat @ 9:17 AM

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Friday, July 01, 2005

42 days before niange is back in SIngapore

Yupppie! I talked to niange online yesterday... she is going to Niagara Falls... i'm so so so jealous!!! Well, i'm stuck in the KEWOC room as usual. i'm so busy till i forgot my mum and dad are going overseas today! OMG! I miss home! I miss ade too! Hmm... met master the day before, our proposed activities was sort of approved except the obstacle course. Well, we are working on them. Hope, this year's orientation won't be bad cause i joined it! Haha! Well, i'm happier these few days, i think because i have things to do and therefore i won't think so much.

Niangeeee, i coming back on the 11 of AUG..... OMG 42 days.... i'll somehow go and fetch her!

Well, Pacey is coming back late. He asked me to have dinner myself.... so sad... i think i'll probably pack food or something.... i don't want to eat alone.... haha.... thats all for now lah... niangeeee... i still cannot find a new crush... i'm so sad... till next time... byeee.....

happi_cat @ 5:56 PM

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Life still goes on....

I slept at 6.30am this morning! It has been quite sometime since i slept that late, or rather 'early'. Was doing KEWOC stuff with an-cle, and did not notice of the time. Well today's KEWOC session was one of the more fruitful ones. We did a recee to West Coast Park, it was the first time i ever stepped into the Park, mass dance, i'm still lack of hands and legs coordination, some programme discussions as well as t-shirt designs. Drew them a funny looking sun and they might use it... haha.... Time flies when you are busy. Being occupied with stuff keeps your mind off things that you don't want to remember. Life still goes on without love. Love is not everything in life, sometimes people have to learn how to cope when you are without love.

I realise actually its not so bad to be alone sometimes, you learn how to take care of yourself. I'm so-called alone on hall, cause my dearest niangeeee is not in hall, in fact not i Singapore to take care of me... sob, i miss you niangeeeee. I understand how you feel niange when you are alone, especially when see people around you are all attached. Generally i'm happy as i am now, but looking forward for niange to come back to hall to accompany me at night, talk to me, eat with me and squeeze into one bed to have a close conversation with me. Maybe i really give up on love already.... i guess its really a game that i will never play in my life. I know its sad, cause i know everyone likes to be loved, but too bad, i just have to accept thefact that i can never have it. Just hope that maybe i can dream about it to have that feeling once in awhile.That all for now, i'm tired already... till next time....

happi_cat @ 2:11 AM

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Monday, June 20, 2005

When there is no choice, it is also a choice.....

If given a choice will you choose something good for you or will you choose something that you like? If thing remains stagnant, will you choose to move on or will you wait for things to change? Well, when i have to choose between the two... its very hard for me to choose. By somehow, God has chosen for me.... to have something good for me and move on.... i have wasted alot of time choosing between the two... its time for me to work on what i have..... hope the something good for me is still there for me to grab..... feeling happier now... raining... nice weather to sleep!

happi_cat @ 2:13 AM

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Saturday, June 18, 2005

Is it very hard to be happy?

I have tried... i really did... why is it so hard to make people happy? I was watching some drama series, the female lead was crying, she said " i tried so hard to make everyone happy, why they just don't appreciate what i have done and keep critisizing?" Well, when i heard that line, i almost cried.... that line sounds so familiar... its something that i said to myself all the time...

I tried hard to make my friends happy, do those things that no one is willing to do, lighten their load.... i don't need them to give me credit or appreciate what i have done, i just want them to be happy... why are they still not happy? Did i do something wrong? Or because of my presence that made them unhappy? I really don't know. Maybe its time for me to disappear so that they can be happy without me..... Sometimes i wonder, what will their life be when its without me? Will their life be the same or better off? Maybe really alot better?

happi_cat @ 8:41 PM

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Friday, June 17, 2005

Theres only one in a million chance to have happiness...

"Theres only one in a million chance to have happiness"... thats a line of a song i heard over the television. Well, i believe its quite true. When a guy likes a girl, the girl might not like him and when a girl likes a guy, he mgiht not like her too. Or maybe when a guy like a girl, she doesn't like him, but when he gave up, she begins to like him. Even if two people are in a relationship, the guy or the girl might not really like his or her partner. Life is so complicated... happiness is so hard to find.

Its hard to love someone, its even harder to forget someone... I always though i have given up and forgotten about him, but when i was watching the video, i realised he is always on my mind... still remember those nights we spend talking... i try hard, i really did, but somehow i just cannot forget him. When i miss him, i will listen to the song that he likes, watch the movie that he likes and think about what he had said to me. Its my fault, i'm stupid or maybe we are not fated to be together.... i just have to learn to let go....

The best way to forget a relationship is to be involve in a new one... well i thinkit doesn't work for me... its not fair to the other party and also how to be in that relationship when your mind is thinking of another person?

People in a relationship... please cherish your relationship, as theres only one in a million chance to have happiness... and you are the lucky person of a million to own happiness...!

happi_cat @ 11:15 PM

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

its not too late....

Everytime when someone wants to repent, his or her friends will tell the person, "its not too late... something can be done....". Is it always not too late to do or say something, what if when you want to do something but you can never do it again? This few days my mood is not as happy.... i'm sorry for not putting it so direct, i don't know how to express it in a nicer way, to me not happy means not happy.... i've lost something precious to me, i wonder can i ever find it again? I miss those times that our group spent together, our group is not complete if one member is not around.... looking at those photos we those, i'm really very sad. I hope my friend will come back to us and not mia again..... I hope its not to late to tell my friend that we love him and hes such a precious gem to everyone especially to me. I miss those days when we spent together and those nights talking over the phone.... if i can ever see or hear from him, i will tell him, "thanks friend for everything you have done for me, lending me a shoulder to cry when i'm sad, entertain me when i'm bored, accompany me when i'm lonely, encourage me when i feel so stress out during project periods, you let me know the importance of friends and how much i need them. You taught me how to cherish friends.... without you i'll always be that cold person that will never smile, i'll not be the Liu Ting that people see..."

Going back to hall later.... have to stay in hall already.. i hate the bed! Maybe is also because niang is not in the room, no one will talk to me before i sleep... i miss you niange!

happi_cat @ 11:03 PM

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Videos.... can do wonders....

I have decided to take more videos.... cause funny videos can really cheer you up real well, when you are in a sad mood. I was watching videos i took and happily laughing out loud. In the video theres all my best friend, ade, eunice, weiwen, pacey.... Pacey! Still remember the video i took when niang and I sent you off at the airport last year? Boy! You look so young!

In another video, weiwen was playing guitar and niange was treating her face... our conversation was so funny... thats what i like about video, motion picture with voice... i miss seeing niange standing in front of the mirror treating her face, miss weiwen playing guitar in my room.... i wonder hows weiwen now? Hope hes doing fine... maybe entertaining his girlfriend now... no time for us anymore...haha!

Well, videos do bring back happy memories.... i shall take more video.... so whenever i'm sad, i shall watch them over and over again!

happi_cat @ 12:50 AM

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Monday, June 13, 2005

Feeling worried... What happened to you? Where are you?

When i'm typing this blog, i'm listening to my friend's favourite song and thinking about those happy memories that our group of friends share....... but this friend of mine has vanished from my life.... i cannot find him anymore, he disappeared. I messaged him, he don't reply anymore, at first i thought he just can't be bothered with me, but i received a message from another friend of mine yesterday telling me that theres something wrong with him, he is uncontactable. Before that message, i admit i'm abit angry with him, but now.... i'm worried, real worried..... what is happening to him? I just pray that nothing will happen to him, i have already lost a good friend, i don't want to lose another..... i rather you are just purposely ignoring me, don;t want me as a friend anymore than to have anything to happen to you..... no matter what happen you are always my dearest friend even i'm not your anymore.....:'( Please... as long as i know you are fine... i don't mind even if you don't talk to me anymore....or i'll stay far away from you....

happi_cat @ 11:14 PM

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

"Ting says she wants to be the main cast of her life"

Hmm... i have decided to blog again after reading Pacey's blog.... " No more substitute.... you are the main cast!"... i'll always remember this phrase. When ever i think of my dearest teacher, i'll always open my drawer and take out this envelop that contained a card. It was mailed out 3 years ago by him. I'll read this card over and over again. Although its just a short note, i never had any teacher sending out such note to me before. While reading the card, i'll always think of those times he spent with us.... those times we spent in activities, be it orienteering, obstacle course or kayaking courses, he is always so supportive and always participated with a smile on his face. I'll always end up crying after reading the note..... i really miss him... he is a teacher that i never had before.

I still remember a few times that i spent with him....those one to one sessions.... haha.... There was once in training camp, i was so stressed out until i was about to kill myself, he will bring out this funny look to try to make me laugh to ease my stress.... we had some small talks while the others are conducting activities.... he always like to tease me, but i enjoy the special teacher-student bond with him.... i really miss such a nice teacher... my greatest regret will be not being able to visit him again in njyc as promised.... i miss the times when he teased me, those mini-competitions, those small talks.... "Mr Lim! I hope you and your wife are fine being with God in heaven...."

happi_cat @ 12:38 AM

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Received reminder to blog...

Haha.... i have to blog cause Pacey sent me a reminder to blog.. okie just a short one cause nothing much to write.... went to trim my hair yesterday. On friday morning i woke up and realised that my hair is abit too thick, so deicided to go and get it trimmed before laziness sets in. About to go to sembawang shopping centre, but was stopped by my brother. He told he theres one saloon beside the carpark 1oo m away. I'm lazy so decided to go there instead of the shopping centre. It was not bad and i got my hair trimmed.

In the afternoon, i went jogging as usual... ran about 4km.... tired, but it feels great to sweat it out. At night i slept super early and had a funny dream... think too stressed out... keep dreaming about the same work stuff...haha stress even before work start?

Saturday? Hmm...besides eat, sleep, watch tv, play computer i did nothing... haha... till next time byeee,,,,,,

happi_cat @ 12:14 AM

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

Just another day...

Oh well, todays blog entry may be a little boring, just want to blog to keep my blog alive.... well came back home from hall this afternoon... wanted to have lunch before coming back, but too bad no one responded to my nic, so decided to dine with my brother. When i walked out of hall... oh my gosh, the road was under construction, it looks totally different from yesterday. Anyway, i managed to walked through the road and travelled back home....

I did nothing much today, mainly jogging, eating, watching television programme as well as playing goldminer. As usual i jogged about 4 km today. It feels so good to sweat it out. I think my stamina has improved, my legs don't ache as much as last week. I shall continue this habit of jogging frequently. had a fun time watching television programmes too. Today watch quite a few drama series and they were all super funny. I laughed non-stop for 3 hours. I ate dumpling for dinner.... i helped in the cooking, took a photo of it. Will upload when i recharged my camera.

Thats all for today, generalyy quite happy.... :P

happi_cat @ 11:18 PM

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Definition of happiness....

Define happiness, i'm sure everyone has his or her own definition..... well as for me, i'm still in search of my personal definition. Hmm, everytime i ask myself, hey are you happy? Sometimes i'll tell myself, hey man you have a perfect family, great friends, able to manage your studies, therefore you should be happy. Am i really happy? i'm not sure... i always feel that something is lacking in my life to have hundred percent happiness.... Haha... at this point, i know those reading my blog sure have some funny ideas one... like "what you lack of is love".... haha but well i know myself that its not the thing that is missing.... i don't believe in love anymore, maybe i just don't have the luck in love... it only brings me sadness and pain....Right now i just want to search for the last thing to complete my definition of happiness...

Theres also many what-if in life... life is filled with uncertainties... the worst senerio will be "what if i die tml?" If i really die tml, my dear friends please don't cry.... remember that i want everyone to stay happy always and once in awhile think of those happy moments i spent with you guys and move on with life.... everyone will die eventually, i just happen to be one of the earlier ones.... oh yah and one more thing, help me take care of my snoopies okie.... i'll miss all of you....

Sometimes i yearn for holidays badly, but sometimes i just hate holidays... When i'm free i will start to think of stuff, especially those sad stuff.... that day when i read my message history with him i felt so sad.... we used to talk everyday online... he used to cheer me up when i'm sad, entertain me when i'm bored, talk crap with me to make me happy when i feel super stressed out with activities.... but now.... he don't talk to me anymore :(. How i wish i can tur back the clock and go back to those times again.... but i know it can never happen.... i miss those days...

There are somethings in life, the more you fear of losing them, the more you will lose them... the more you try to hold on to them, the more they will go away.... sometimes we just have to accept those hard cold facts. Reality are always hard to swallow, but we have to learn to do that. I'm trying my best to accept them and also in search of my very own definition of happiness....

happi_cat @ 4:25 PM

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I miss niangeeee....

Today is blogging day.... i have decided to write more entries to compensate for the laziness for these two weeks... i have decided to blog more to let my dearest niange to read.... this entry is for her..... my dearest niangeeeeeee..... i miss you lots......

I'm so lonely in the room.... i miss those days we spent in the room.... i miss those nights we eat supper together, study together (though this only happened when you had tests or exams), nights we spent talking about your crushes, those times you attempted to share a bed with me.... miss your cooking, the music that you will always 24/7 over and over again.... and not to forget your voice and also you keeping complaining about becoming fat like a ball.... i guess i'm so used to you around.... feel so weird without you in the room.... please come back fast okie? i really really miss you.... Hall is so different without you...:(

Its very funny, i miss you more when i'm in hall.... haha... maybe because i really treat you as my niangeee in hall.... i miss you calling me nu-er.... i miss your smses... "hi nu-er are you coming back for dinner... haha...." i really hope time will pass asap so that i can see you soon... me and pacey have decided to skip class to fetch you from the airport... haha...please update us on the details of yur flight okie....

happi_cat @ 2:08 AM

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Cheer up brother.....

Haha....Pacey, my dear brother said that i mentioned little about him in my blog. SO i have decided to dedicate an entry to him. Got to know my dearest baby brother, Pacey, through last year's hall play.... and i never regret knowing him... it has been an exciting two years with this brother around. We always have fun,eating, gossiping, going out, doing float, doing hall play, crapping online..... blah blah....

Hmm.... still remember float days.... those days were tough, what motivates me to wake up everyday is to check mail... haha... to see if he has return our emails, or whether is he online to talk to me, cause as everyone know, niangeee always cannot wake up! I'll always update him about the lastest gossips and love life of niangeeee.... hehe... when he came back, we'll always eat together, cause he is the only one that eats as much as me... haha....

Hall play days were as memoriable... remember those never ending meetings as well as piles of work and phone calls to make. Thanks for making my stay in hall a memoriable one....thanks for giving me such exciting experiences.....

I'll try to remember my friends birthdays and try to do something for them.... i of course remember my dearest brother's birthday.... and did something for him...haha.... hope he enjoyed his birthday as much as everyone did. Just remember whatever i do, i just want my friends to be happy, so must try to be happy always ya? Life is never smooth sailing, but after every downhill there will always be a uphill.... friends can make your lonely journey lively instead of lonely.... haha.... i'll always be there for you my friend.... so don't be depress lah... smile okie... the most i buy you more coke lor... hehe.... i'll talk to you even no one else doesn't... See... this entry so long... haha....

happi_cat @ 1:53 AM

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Those were the days...

Pacey's blogging attitude made me want to blog... hmmm talked to vila in the morning, time flies.. we are going to be year 3 soon... year 1 days seem like they were just memories from yesterday.... and i miss ade badly especially when i'm in hall... mis the days we talk before we sleep, cook supper together... niangeeee i'm missing you!

I talked to Ee Wei just now.... we talked about our secondary school days, the class mates, teachers, lessons... still remember those cooking lessons, physics lesson and chinese lessons... after class hottest slacking area, the library, the mama shop where we had our curry puffs and also not to forget the netball sessions... we were so happy then...

I miss my jc days too, especially oac days.... i miss my fellow oacian, how i wish we can all meet one day, for happy occassion like maybe on someone's wedding. I miss Mr lim too, he is such a nice teacher... i miss those camping days we spent talking, training days where he gave me lots of encouragements, those times when he teased me... times he spend with us, celebrating mh's birthday, activities time.... i hope you are enjoying yourself with the one you love now!

I miss everyone in jc .... especially my activity co-partner. We used to be so close together, i miss those times we spent on small talks, recee sessions, movie trips, outings, do nothing but talking crap.... but now things are so different, we no longer talk, you no longer reply to my emails, smses, msn messages.... you are so far away from me.... everytime when i get a message i'll make a wish before i open it... i'll wish that the messages are from you even though i know it can neve be true.... can you please tell me what is going on?? I'm being dumb again, knowing that you don't even have my blog address.... you will never get to see this

I always thought that only relationships are fragile and therefore always try to avoid them.... now i realise i'm wrong, actually friendships are as fragile too... they need as much care as relationships...

happi_cat @ 4:00 PM

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

Wonderful Ubin Trip and 4C gathering

Hmm.. i had a wonderful day today! Me and Kelly woke up around 9.30pm... way later than Pacey, he was woken up by CK. Then washed up n had peanut butter bread for breakfast. We left at around 1015, managed to catch bus 92 to Buona Vista MRT station. WE took a train to Tampines. On the way we saw Lifu n his friend... we accompanied them all the way to their stop at city hall. We met up with Pacey's friend James at Tampines. I bought a coffee bread, which i'm addicted to now, Kelly bought a ham bread and Pacey bought a chocolate doughnut before we met up with James. At Changi Village, we decided to have lunch and i had fish soup beehoon. After lunch, we took a boat to travel to ubin. We had a fun time there.... we walked the whole afternoon... oh boy, our legs ache like nobody's business. We went to puaka and took tonnes of photos as the scenery up at puaka was superb!

After the trip we went for dinner.... i had fish again... i love fish so much! We saw jo n vic at the hawker... hahaa.... they went ubin to cycle... We took the journey back together and we bid farewell to Pacey's friend James at Tampines. I stopped at cityhall while they travel back to hall. I went for my class bbq... so fun... didn't see my dearst 4C classmates for ages.... haha... it was a fun and enjoyable gathering.. we interacted and i hope we can have another one soon... hehe... thats all for now... i'm so tired to type anymore ...haha.. till next time...

happi_cat @ 3:59 PM

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Friday, June 03, 2005

Results out....

Hmm... got back my results yestersday... not that fantastic, but somehow managed to maintain my cap, and increase by 0.04 :P Happified... all the modules i think will CMI also didn't CMI, all got at least a B, haha... lucky no donkeys n cats in sight... shall work harder next sem to pull up my cap more... shall not slack anymore.... haha... slack too much last semester... time to buck up... :P I shall treat myself pizza.... Pizza here i come!!!!!

happi_cat @ 1:09 PM

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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Happy outing n dinner....

I had a wonderful Sunday... thanks Pacey! I brought Pacey to my favourite neighbourhood... Woodlands Central! Hmm we met at Marsiling MRT station, where we begin our outing. We past my primary school.... Marsiling Primary School! Hehe... Pacey took a few photos... but he accidentally deleted them away... nevermind.. we will go again another time. After my primary school, i brought Pacey to Woodlands town garden... it has been ages since i last visited the park... the park is as beautiful as before, but more deserted.... hmm, Pacey liked the park, he said that he was surprised that theres such a place in Singapore. Due to the poor weather we stayed at the park for awhile then we left for the central.

At the central, Pacey had his lunch at the hawker center, he ate carrot cake and we had ice-kachang...hehe... that was a nice lunch :P Auntie Pacey wanted to look for more ingredients for dinner, so we went to a giant supermaket... we bought fish and some vegetables.... the giant supermarket was so big till we cannot find stuff... i told pacey... "Now, i like clementi better, cause smaller easier to find things.... heheee"

It was raining heavily when we left the supermarket, but me managed to dashed to the bus stop without getting too drenched.... haha we had a fun time man... right Pacey...?? We went to nestor's causeway point! Nothing much there.... we went to cold storage to buy some stuff and left for hall.....

We had a fun time preparing food! Haha! Everyone helped in one way in another.... haha.... the food was superb! We had a fun time talking and interacting while cooking.... Dinner was so cool... food was good and the company was even better.... food will not taste as good without the company! Pacey attempted to matchmake me, then boss n cj join in the "fun".... well i ignored them lah.... fate will come naturally, i don't believe in matchmaking! Furthermore i like staying single, i can have all the freedom i want! Thanks anyway lah... but i really not interested!!!!! Niangeee... i miss you.... hope you miss me too....

happi_cat @ 11:20 AM

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Saturday, May 28, 2005

happy dinner n breakfast...

I had a fun last night and today. Well, i bought groceries and cook dinner... well me and puiyee did the preparation, but everyone helped out in the cooking. The dinner was not fanastic, but was okie... the company matters more than the food. Pacey, cj, victor, puiyee and her bf plus me, six of us had dinner. Well, we had great fun! After dinner, we watch a few episode of CSI! Boy, CSI is sooo cool!!!!After that, i watched another two episodes of desperate housewives!

Well, today is a saturday, we had bfc breakfast again! Surprisingly our dear president was on time...hahaa... and our future president, cj was late... i think we are fated to always wait for the president...hehe... we had a fun time bitching together...haha.... bfc rocks! After bfc meeting, nestor watched another episode of CSI. After which, pacey and i went to IMM and have our lunch. Hmm... we had Long John Silver.... i has been n years since i eaten LJS.... i had a fish wrap while pacey have a chicken wrap... thats Pacey's first LJS meal... again he had lots of fun talking and eating at the same time!

After lunch, me and Pacey went to giants and buy groceries... i bought tonnes of CD-R to burn my CSI while he bought groceries and he is cooking for us tomorrow night!!! Yay! Good food again! Hmm... tomorrow we are going Causeway point! hmmm talk about it tomorrow... why causeway point, ask nestor... his suggestion...hahaaaa.... hope tomorrow we'll have lots of fun.... till tml... byeeeeee

happi_cat @ 10:22 PM

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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Jogging day 2....

Hmm... went jogging again for the 2nd day... realise its not as bad as yesterday... but i start to love jogging...hahaa.... went to the supermarket with my grandma today... watched tv as usual.. the 7pm drama is quite nice.. funny... going back to hall tml and cook...hahaaa.. so long didn't cook le, hope i will not burnt the food... cooking reminds me of niangeee... niangeeee i miss you!!!! That all, write more tml...hahaa....

happi_cat @ 11:40 PM

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Jogging day....

I went jogging today, finally... jogged for about 4-5km... realised my stamina really zero... might jog tomorrow too... see how... made another birthday card... hahaa... watched desperate housewives again...hehee..... thats my life.. watch tv, exercise, eat, sleep and make cards... ohh yah... i went to the library and borrowed some books.... a variety, from architecture, comics, diy to story books!!!!! I read a book today... and yeah quite nice... a bitchy book :P... thats all lah.. nothing much also... i think niang wil yawn when she reads my blog... cause everyday like the same... hahaaa.....

happi_cat @ 12:28 PM

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Now i know how fragile friendships can be....

Hmm had a simple dinner gathering yesterday with xiaoyun, junhong,yuande as well as menghui. Hmm... well... i enjoyed myself talking to them all.... niangeeee you will like junhong's hair...hahaaa.... well junan is busy working, kent had family function so they didn't come lor... some people erm.. just choose to mia, don't reply to smses and even hangup menghui's phone.... so cmi... nvm lah... don't care....

Well i watched a few episodes of deperate housewives..... again... talked to Pacey again... hahaaa i love his tag... "i swear to God i'll take care of LT's snoopy..."... hehe.... Thanks Pacey! For making me understand whats true friendship.... Some people are just too "high class and smart" to be my friend.... i'm just too dumb.....

hmm i'm gg to the library later to borrow books...hehe...long time since i step into the library....try to pull myself away from the tv...heheee....

happi_cat @ 6:01 AM

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Just another day....

Hmm.. i'm so busy yesteday till i forgot to blog... hahaa... oh well.... i had a fun time yesterday.... went out with my familt except my brother who attempted to study... then headed towards my aunt's house and had dinner.... i went from one house to another sine their houses are side by side....

My aunt's cooking is superb... her soup was so nice that i drank N bowls.... meaning i lost count on the number of bowls i have drank... i drink till my aunt fainted... she was so amazed by the number of bowls i can drink.... then talked to Pacey... hahaaa I talked to him like N times also...haha.... I started making birthday cards..... haaghhaa... till now i have completed two out of so many... nvm... i shall take my time....

As usual, i watch tv again... hahaaaa... desperate houewives.... hahaaaa.... oh yah... o talked to niangeeeeee yesterday... i miss you niange!!!!!!!!! well, talked to pacey and cj also..... hahaaaaa.... had a fun time talking to them..... i'm so bad at multi-tasking...... hahaaaa... so slow at drawing plus talking at the same..... time.... but nvm....

I did nothing for the whole of today... except talked to xy for a while and also watch tv plus drawing cartoons..... i also come to sense that mia pple should not be entertain... i'm so sick of mia pple.... when they are busy or with better company... they just walk away for simply ignore you... when they are bored they will come and disturb you..... i hate those pple......!!!!!!!!! ANyway shall not talk abput those people anymore... i wonder if i'm going out later..... hmm... out for tea... byeee.....

happi_cat @ 8:05 AM

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Happy BFC meeting... but as usual the president was late..

Yay! BFC gathering after 2 weeks... boy i miss bfc so much.... hmm yesterday night stayover in hall watched a couple of series, then slept at around 5 plus then woke up at 7.30 a.m for breakfast. I went to wash up, then picked up Pacey to meet the rest at the red staircase. We were a bit late and poor cj fed the mosquitoes..... sorry CJ! Hmm... anyway, we went down for breakfast till about 10 plus.... Members invloved were nestor, as usual late, Pacey, CJ, Puiyee and me.... me... it was a super fun meeting....

After the meeting Pacey and I went back to hall... we talked for a couple of minutes... err more like half and hour.... we realised how much we miss hall play and also float days..... Hmm suddenly...this idea cross Pacey's mind and boom! He might be the F next block head...hehee.... F block!!!!!!

I came home at around noon. Before i came home i went over to Sun plaza and picked up a stack of construction papers... i have decided to make birthday cards for my friends..... first on the list... CJ? Daddy? See how.... haha....I watched a few epoisodes of desperate and went to bed and then here i am.. awake and blog... thast all for now... i'm goign back to watch my series...hehe... byeeee

happi_cat @ 11:19 AM

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Friday, May 20, 2005

In hall...

Hmmm... i'm stuck in hall... haha... more like i chose to stay over in hall tonight... oh well... cause Pacey' promised to watch desperate housewives with me.... i watched till the 7th episode but it is abit faulty so i stopped and decided to blog. I'm such a tv face... i sure cannot make it later in the morning.....

I did my laundry... finally! I watched CSI, desperate housewives and some junk show on the television..... had dinner... what did i eat? Hmm... niange's favourite fish soup with bee hoon.... i miss you niangeeee.... desperate housewives is fantastic... haha..... but not as cool as CSI....

Talked to Aaron just now.... glad that he still remembers me.... just like my tag on msn... Its nice to know that at the other side of the world... theres still someone like you who cares... Thanks bro! Really glad to know that someone still remembers me and talks to me... it makes me feel that besides my family someone actually still cares for me.... Why am i still thinking of him when i'm writing this..... i think i need more time..... no point being angry at him... it just means that i can't get over him... haha.... let go let go.... he don't belongs to you...... haha... easier said than done.....

Niangeee... i haven find a new crush yet... maybe thats why i'm still thinking of him... haha.... i'll try my best to find one man....

happi_cat @ 7:01 PM

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Slacking day...

I didn't cycle today cause it was raining... so sad.... anyway i tried to do my proposal instead.... i think i cannot be a murderer... i cannot even plan one for my game, who is the murderer... hahaaa then what did i end up doing? Watching CSI again.... faintz....

I'm planning to go back to hall to do my laundry.... hope i didn't stink up the room yet... need to take some sports attire cause i'm going to Ubin on monday! Yay! I miss xiao yun and company lots.... wanted pacey to come along buy he is shy...haha... unlike him huh.... Anyway planning to cook tomorrow for Pacey... hope there is gas in the tank... Tell you details, niangeee.... i miss you... hope i don't flop tomorrow with burnt or uncook food..... :P

Going to continue my proposal later, then watch CSI again... heheeee... waiting for my dad to be back for dinner.... not really hungry..... nothing much to update le... Niange, if you are reading this, told ya my life will be this boring, everyday is the same... hahaaa..... ANyway going for dinner le... byeeeeee

happi_cat @ 10:16 AM

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

Cycling day....

Recently i'm a pig.... hahaaa i sleep till 1 plus everyday, can? Haha.... i think it is to pay my sleeping debt.... my CSI supply is running low... i think i'm going back to copy again.... Hmmm planning of going back to hall on friday, to do my laundry, collect some clothes as well as cook for Pacey as promised. Hope my cooking still can make it.....

Hmm..... today as usual woke up around 1 plus, then played computer game. After which i went cycling for 2 whole hours.... haha.... not bad.... quite relaxing... good to be under the sun... then came back ate some cereal, and bread.... then watched CSI again.... CSI is so cool! Now i'm blogging again... as promised to my niangeeee... told you my life is ever so boring... but i like it... sleep and watch tv plus cycling... heheeee

Thats all for now... byeeeee... i miss you niangeeee

happi_cat @ 12:15 PM

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Happy day out....

Hmm... today is a happy day... i went out today... with my dearies and angela.... I was abit reluctant to go out today cause it was raining just now, good time to sleep... hahaa.... anyway i managed to pull myself out of bed and went out.... and i had great fun!!!

I met them at Wisma Macs and we begin our outing. We first decide on what to watch. Intially, Michell wanted to watch House of Wax, due to our strong protest, dear and me.... heheeee, we agreed on another horror, The Amityville Horror. I love horror shows... hehee which alot of people don't understand why, especially my dearest niangeeee.....i still miss you niangeeeee...
Anyway, though it was not vey scary, but acceptable.. i founf a horror movie partner,Michell!!! Yay! We bought tickets and when for dinner at a Japanese restaurant... the food wa abit expensive, but the portion was large.... so it was okie.... then we proceed to watch the movie.... then had coffee while we bid farewell to my dear cause she need to go back for lecture.... anyway it was a nice day out... thanks everyone!

I came back home.... watch another series of CSI... heheee , i'm uch a tv face.... thats all for today... oh yah... i didn't cycle today... so sad, cause too late le when i reach home and also it was raining..... gtg liao... byeeeee

P.S Niangeee, please tag if you have read my blog okie? Thanks.....

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

I miss niangeeeee

Hmm didn't blog yesterday.... was lazy and also cause nothing much to write..... hmmm as usual went to cycle and also watch tonnes of CSI... CSI is so cool!!!!!! I'm so addicted to CSI and desperate housewives... hahaaa.... I'm going to watch it on channel 5 later......

Someone pointed something very interesting to me..... the person suggested that i should do acitivties that start with the letter 'C' as i somehow always doing things that start with the letter 'C', like cycling, CSIing, cooking, canoeing, construction... hahaaa....

Went out with my mum today..... she bought 2 more pairs of shoes..... yun dao... she is always buying shoes...... went cycling also... went late, then there are tonnes of parents waiting for their kids, blocked my way... so hard to cycle... haha... i'm going to perserve and cycle everyday... hahaaa, hopefully can slim down.... :P

Going to watch house of Wax tml.... hmm.. heard its not very nice, but my dear michell wants to watch so nvm lor, pei her lah....hahaaa Going to have a gathering with my ex-collegues.... so excited... miss them so much.... okie lah.. thats all for now.....

happi_cat @ 12:34 PM

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

Happi Birthday Ee Wei!

I'm sooo tired! Just came back from Ee Wei's chalet. Before that i had lunch with boss, jia min, ah kai, eunice and pacey at Pizza hut. After that i went to buy wei's present, i bought her a heart shape pendant with a blue gem, hope she likes it! Then went to my aunt's house and rot for awhile. Used my cousin's webcam and chate with Pacey for awhile, its so cool... never used it before. I look so funny on webcam....haha! After that, i had lunch with my family at Amara hotel's Thai restaurant. The food was great! I loved the crab and the chicken wing. But overall i think the dessert, mango dessert was the best! After that i went to wei's chalet, i was at east coast! I walk quite abit before i arrive. I saw my secondary school classmates there. Didn't see them for ages! I took bus with them and had a great chat with tks... boy i miss his gossips!!!!! Hope we can have a class gathering!!!!! That all for today..... byeeee

happi_cat @ 12:44 AM

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Friday, May 13, 2005

happi cycling day....

Today is a rest day for me..... i went cycling.... that was fun... but i realised my stamina dropped alot... almost zero liao... must cycle everyday to get it back..... i watched my favourite tv show today, it was the last episode.... hmm quite a sad ending... but it was good! SLept alot today to compensate for the lacked of sleep the few nights before.... did nothing much... so not much to update... thats all for now... byeeeeeeee

happi_cat @ 10:01 PM

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Happy birthday Lilian...

I have decided to blog as and when i'm free so that my dear niangeee has more stuff to read. Hmm, just came back from my ex-collegue's 21st birthday. I'm so full... had lots of food at her party... it has been a long time since last i met up with her. She look skinnier, but also prettier..... hmm, saw her bf for the first time, he looks like someone in hall.... haahaa... anyway they look good together and i believe he is very sweet to her....

i'm quite tired, i've decided not to go to nyjc tml. I want to have more sleeping time and also to start my exercise plan tomorrow... i'm going to cycle tml! yay! hope the weather is good tml! okie lah just make this a short entry.... going to blog again later in the morning... byeeeeeee

happi_cat @ 4:44 PM

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Thursday, May 12, 2005

Bon voyage my dearest niangeee n an-cle..

Hmm, it has been a long time since i last blogged. Cause exams mah, plus also because i'm a bit lazy... :P Anyway i have promised my dearest naingeee that i'll blog so that she can read about what is happening around me in Singapore. I shall be a good girl and start from this morning, nothing particuarly special just that i'm sort of reluctant to wake up cause the weather is super nice to sleep..... but no choice lah, have to send my niangee off if not will not get to see her for like 3 months... oh boy i strat to miss you le niangeeeee. Remember to tag when you enter my blog okie?

After i sent niang off i had lunch with Eunice and some of niange's class people. And then i met an-cle and we watched a part of Charlie and the chocolate factory in the airport using my laptop. After which i sent him off too then picked up aunt up and then here we are i'm at my aunt's house. I had good food! Carrot cake, soup, stew mushrooms... boy i love home cooked food! I can say good bye to canned food and hall for about one month! Yay!

Hmm... i begin to think, three months, not very long but not very short also .... will niangeeee change? Or will i change? Asd for now, i think i'll still remain as i am, maybe probably a little bit fatter, since its the holidays... hahaaaa... Just pary that niange will have a safe journey and maybe find my actual daddy in US... then i can have a daddy plus 2 packets of peel fresh!!!!!

My aunt wants to treat me to a holiday! But i cannot go... so sad... nvm next time bah.... :P I'm going for my friend's 21st brirthday party le.... gtg,,, shall update again tml..... byeeee for now....

happi_cat @ 5:35 PM

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

Haiz.....

Today is Saturday and as usual i'm at home. This will be the last weekend that i'll be home for the weekends until the exams are over. I'm going to visit my granddad and great grand parents' graves tomorrow. I hope i will be able to wake up early! Hmm... nothing much to say... heehee, just want to keep my blog alive! Life is filled with decisions to make, i hope i'm not making the wrong decision to follow my heart, like i always do. I think i'm going to miss those days, but i guess i just have to move on. Don't think so much, everything will be fine, what will be will be. Some things are just meant to be that way. What will be mine will be mine. I just hope that some interesting or magical events will happen to me at least for once in my lifetime. I truely hope to get surprises or at least a surprise in my lifetime. Good night!

happi_cat @ 4:51 PM

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

In dilemma....

If given a choice will you choose something good for you or will you choose something that you like? If thing remains stagnant, will you choose to move on or will you wait for things to change? I have been asking myself these two questions more the past few weeks. I will go for something that is good for me and will move on with my life, that is my decision. I really hate myself sometimes, i wanted to follow my decision, but my heart is only following it halfway. Some part of my heart is still protesting that i should go for the thing that i like, should i? Will I? I think I will not do that, because i do not have enough enoucrage to go for the thing that i like, or am i scare of failure? I don't know. Can anyone please tell me what to do? People around me keep telling me that i should go for something that i like so that i will not regret later in life, but i think if i choose something that is good for me, i can be happy too cause i will not be sad if i cannot get the thing i like and also things good for me cannot make be that sad right? Okay, maybe not as happy.

Haha, maybe i think too much, there isn't anything that i like and also a thing that is good for me. Maybe i should wait for the things to come and decide. Exams are coming and , yes i am very scare, this sememster is pretty tough, i hope i can make it! Yes, i will make it! I will try my best and not regret! Wish me luck okie? Thank uncle, for being the first one to wish me luck! Enjoy your trip!

happi_cat @ 2:01 PM

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Monday, February 07, 2005

Define happy...

It has been a long long time since i last blogged... heehee. Oh well, hallplay has come to an end. I have made real good friends from hallplay. thanks hallplay! Well we even set up a breakfast club with nestor as the president... haahaa, hes a real cute president with his famous phrase " cannot make it!"... haahaa....

Recently, for the past 2 weeks, i'm feeling quite sad, don't know is it because of apple or because of the super heavy workload.... but i have straighten my thoughts... haahaa... if something is mine, in the end it'll definitely come back to me... why think so much? Haahaa.... We celebrated Pacey's birthday on Saturday 0000... haahaa, really had a super fun time talking rubbish n interact.... haven't been so happy for very long. Hmm.. decided to give up on apple and move on.... haahaa... i'm good k, i resist all temptations.... Ww came n and joined in the celebration, glad that he made it.... long time since i met him, hmm, i think he changed again... haahaa... but i want to thank him for entertaining my friends with the guitar... :P Oh yah... thanks for the snoopies too!

I think cw has something to tell me... from all the actions, conversations and behaviour, i've concluded tha cw wanted to tell me something... but what is it? Hmm.. hope its a good news n not bad news.....

happi_cat @ 1:14 PM

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Memories by JH

Life.

How strange it leads you to places that you would never expect to go, and stranger still how it makes you long for the days gone past, even as you walk inevitably along its many corridors.

We long to re-live the good times that we had, to never leave behind intimate experiences of fun, joy and friendship.

And we long to encapsulate all that we’ve been through, to etch them deeply, irrevocably, into our hearts and minds.

We swim in our memories, flailing and gliding through the congealing waters as we go deeper and deeper into the dream-like world of our past. We see sights that remind us of things that we wish not to remember, or objects that resonate with things that left indelible imprints upon our lives.

Indeed, the past never seems to truly release its hold on us.

Now as I sit here and type this out in my office in camp, my memories are swirling and churning within my mind. Memories of LTC, of endless hours of PTs, of the fear we harbored, the worries we had and the gnawing ache of interminable hours spent in meetings.

But there are other memories too. Memories of the friendship we built, the times we encourage each other in times of difficulties be it studies, our cca or even our personal lives, the gatherings we had even after we went separate ways, memories of laughter, joy, faith, determination and hope.

Indeed, it has been an amazing journey of ups and downs in those two years. But, we made it. Through it all, we conquered our fears, broke down obstacles set down for us, and soared, bit by bit, towards the finishing line.

And we entered the next chapter of our lives, moving to university or the army, always in the evening of my memories have I returned to those two years we spent together. Always there echoes the memories of the incredible journey that we had. Always there echoes the memories of the friends we were, and the friends that we will continue to be.

And I thank you all, my fellow OACians, and friends.

happi_cat @ 5:12 PM

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Back from hong kong....

Hello... i'm back from hong kong!!! Hmmm had a fun trip, do nothing but eat and eat and eat non- stop, haahaa, growing fat liao.... but the food there is really v nice... can't stop myself! Bought a few stuff back home, food and some accessories. But its nice to be home!

Late night class again! Hmm i have night class again this sem! 7-9pm! I think its better than morning class...haahaa.. cause i'll fall asleep!

Talked to hong this afternoon, it has being quite some time since i really talked to him, miss the times we spent together in camp, hope we can meet up again one day. He changed quite alot, now he is a more quiet and reserved person as he used to be more chatty and lively. Saw our camp photo on his MSN, i guess we really miss those days!!!

happi_cat @ 3:51 PM

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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Just feel like blogging...

Hmm... went back to hall to do welfare stuff cum help SWC do email design.... So happy!!! My dear Qi Yang is back! I was so scared that no one can help me do welfare tomorrow...... thanks Qi Yang! I think my email design speed slow down le, use around 2 hours to do one email, yun dao! Then stayed in hall till 6 pm. After that, i went to search for nonya dumplings, fainted!!!! Clementi so BIGGGG, no dumpling in sight! Then have to travel all the way to outram to buy! Legs ache after so much walking...... but gald that i found them..... hope my aunt likes them!

Flying in a few hours' time.... starting to feel abit excited! Well, packed my bag le... hope i din forget anything! Going to bring my old old camera along... heehee! then my brother laughed at me, nvm lah... i'll still bring! Hope i have fun in Hong Kong! Hmm, so surprise that Eguene gave me a card! Thanks Eguene! Merry Christmas!

happi_cat @ 5:12 PM

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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

One more day....

Hmmm, one more day and i'll be leaving Singapore to Hong Kong..... not very excited though i'm boarding the plane again..... don't know why... maybe too many things have happened recently... not really in the holiday mood...

Wrote 20 plus x'mas card today, feels like a x'mas card printing machine... heehee... hope everyone likes my cards....

happi_cat @ 5:47 PM

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Sunday, December 19, 2004

Final goodbye....

People gather not only for joyous occasions, but also for other occasions, occasion where we pay tribute, tribute to our dear teacher Mr John Lim. We will definitely miss you, Mr Lim! Went back to nyjc today, boy, i miss ny sooo much. Walk on the track, it reminds me of our pt days, days where i once dread so much and miss so much now. Fond memories that i share with my fellow oacians and Mr Lim came to my mind, still remember how he once encouraged and cheered me on, on that same old track in ny, and i will hold on to the memories, and will always remember him. Still remember on his wedding day, he told us to visit him and ny when we are free, and now we did, we visited the school and him. Goodbye Mr. Lim and your dearest wife, may you two rest in peace.

Why people will only be appreciated when they are death? What Xiao Yun said is quite true, why is it only when there is occasions like funerals or memorials will people turn up to cry and moan, when its occasions like wedding, people give excuses that they are not free and not attend? Don't see as many people on weddings than on funerals.....

I wish, i wish.... the next time we gather will be because of some joyous occasion....

happi_cat @ 5:09 PM

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Words of encouragement...

Eyes were swollen this morning, think cry too much ... when i feel like crying again my eyes start to pain again.... happen to found the x'mas present that we bought for Mr lim in my cupboard.... still remember Mr Lim likes Ultraman, bought him one for x'mas but, never have the chance of giving him ..... Found the card that he gave me two years ago..... tears roll down my eyes without control..... those encouragements... that message will always be in my mind.....

I will be strong, will try to be a good student of his..... but please give me some time to settle down..... God bless them....

happi_cat @ 2:35 PM

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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

He really left....

Why do the good ones always go first... thats ww's nic.... i watched the news today... when i saw Mr. Lim's news i was heartbroken, he was a really really good teacher, we liked him lots. Saw OACians yahoogroups, everyone's heartbroken, he left us, really left us.... chailing cried so hard when Mrs. Koh confirmed the news. I tried to deceive myself that maybe, maybe they made a mistake, until today..... it was on the news.

What jh said is cruel but its was the best out of the worst... at least they were grant instant tickets to heaven instead of slow and torturing death. But, why why must it be them......

happi_cat @ 11:35 PM

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swollen eyes, broken heart....

Cry the whole of last night, couldn't sleep.... thinking of the times that we spent with Mr Lim in OAC and PE days. Saw his news on the newspaper, and the messages on yahoogroups.... we miss him, really do...

happi_cat @ 7:26 AM

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Sunday, December 12, 2004

life is so unpredictable....

" Life is short, do cherish it....." Thats a quote that someone said before. I never really look into it until today, until he left us and reunite with God in heaven. Always wanted to find sometime to thank him for what he has done for me, thanks him for being such a great teacher and friend. But.... i never have the chance of seeing him again, to say what i want to say to him..... i'm really very sad, why, why, why i didn't find a time to do that, to thank him... its too late Thanks Mr Lim, you are a great teacher, i will always look up to you!

Will always remember the times you spend with us, in camps, during the one and two star canoeing courses, during our activities, during our celebrations..... remember what you told us, " i know you all feel uncomfortable in the runs, but its only for awhile, i feel it too, just endure and it'll be over" Still remember that time we had a mini competition, its obvious that you will win, but you let me win.

I will do what i have promised you, do my best in uni, i will not let you down! You will always be in my heart, in the heart of 23rd batch OACians! Our dearest teacher!

happi_cat @ 11:31 PM

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life is so unpredictable....

happi_cat @ 11:31 PM

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Thanks for everything... my dearest teacher!

This entry in dedicated to my dearest teacher, Mr John Lim.

When i first received xiao yun's sms, i couldn't believe my eyes. You were such a great teacher. Still remember how you tried to teach me how to swim, how you encourge us in our trainings, the talks that we had in camps, how you used to tease me, how you encouraged me when i was feeling so down, and so on. You have always been a great teacher and a great friend. Now you are no longer with us.....

Still remember the day when we attended your wedding, you were so happy. We shook hands and i gave you my wishes.... and now you are gone forever.

Life is so unpredictable, why, why, why? Why you left us suddenly? We promised to visit you when we are free, and now we will never see you again. We'll miss you... you will always be in our heart.

happi_cat @ 8:02 PM

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Thursday, December 09, 2004

Hmm.... just feel like blogging

Define friend..... a friend is someone that will be there when you need him/her, a person you look for when you encounter problems, share precious moments with and someone that will not make you cry. I almost lost the ability to define it..... i always like to say, "what are friends for, man" when my friends thank me for any assistance i gave them. For now, i really don't know what i am for them..... i have great friends, but me, as a friend, what am i?

Benson said something yesterday that made me found the meaning of friends again.... he is really a good friend to have, always there to make me happy, comfort me in his own way.... great to have you as my friend! Thanks for everything my dear friend!

Hmm, last few minutes before turning 20. No special feeling, don't know why, now not really into the mood of celebrating birthday. I just wish that all my friends will stay happy always, then i'll be happy.... other birthday wishes... hmm.. for me to know and for you to find out! Bleh! This is my sixth blog entry....

happi_cat @ 11:07 PM

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What a day!

The ability to cry is a gift from God to soothe the broken heart.....hmm a sad phrase?
Well, i think its quite true, crying does help people to feel better. People do feel better after finish crying don't they? Well thus is my fifth blog entry....

How i wish i can turn back the clock.... thats what most people wish to do... or stop the clock at that particular moment where they think its the happiest of their life. For me i have always wanted to turn back the clock, especially today..... though some things are not exactly my fault, but its somehow related to me, i just can't stop thinking that i indirectly caused it. I really wish i can turn back the clock, stop myself from doing some things, things will not be what it is today.

Finally i got to know what it meant by a pen is mighter than sword, now i finally understand how words can hurt too. Some words can pierce through people's heart, shattered hopes and dreams.... hmm.... i guess its part of a life process??

When you feel sad, food doesn't taste as good, things doesn't seem that right and you doesn't feel that good... hmm... i also don't know why i became so emotional but that what i want to say today....

Saw eddie today at the canteen... didn't know that he cares for me.... touched! I guess we'll always be best of friends, friends forever! I guess he will never know the secret that i hold dearly in my heart, i think being friends is the best! I talk freely to him..... if something will happen, no matter what happens it will still happen....

happi_cat @ 7:55 PM

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

In hall...

I'm in hall now...! Came back for hall play! Haiz... although missed my 9pm show, so sad, had a fun meeting just now, steering comm people are just so crappy! Hmm my fourth blog of my life! Count down to 2 days before my birthday! Hmm... well no special feelings, just another ordinary day, just wish to sleep till drop, eat till drop, all my friends are happy, then i'll be happy!

Ate instant noodles for dinner, haiz, i hate it, but have to eat it cause no more food already. Feel quite sad today, especially when something bad happened but its not related to me, but some how related to me caused it somehow is caused by me. Always thought i have done something to make my friends happy, but don't know why it turned out the other way...

Andy talked to me today! I should be happy right... but some how i don't feel the excitement today... cause i was too traumatised by what have happened today. Later in the afternoon going to do up the SDE noticeboard, before that going to have lunch with Pacey... hmm... hope tomorrow will be another day... a brand new and happy day...

happi_cat @ 6:13 PM

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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Ice-cream!

Yeah! My third blog entry! Heehee... oh well today is tv day, i spent my whole day watching tv.... i watched until my niange, ade, fainted! Heehee! I love tv! I watched a chinese show, don't know what is the name, heartlanders, strong medicine, fei yi ban ma ma, news, double happiness, a variety show, the 9 pm drama, true files, another show that i don't know the name and so on... heehee! Happified! I love the 9 pm show, its very funny! heehee!

Talked to eddie online, feel so relaxed and happy talking to him, not like talking to some people, always have to find topic to talk about, he always come out with funny stuff and never fail to amuse me. Hehe! Niang went out with Art today, haahaa, glad she enjoyed herself. Saw daddy online! he promised to treat me ice-cream... haahaa! Actually just wanted to joke with him, but then he didn't argue and agreed immediately, haha! Yeah free ice-cream treat! Feels good to have such a nice daddy.. too bad my niang is not interested anymore.... hehee.

Tommorrow i will be travelling back to school! Haiz, i hope i will not be bored to tears when i'm back in school. Hope hall play meeting will be short so that i'll not miss CSI.... praying hard....

happi_cat @ 3:14 AM

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Monday, December 06, 2004

Lazy Sunday...

Hmm, second blog entry of me...... today is a lazy Sunday... finally can spend a good Sunday at home, without having to rush back to hall..... Spend half a day sleeping away, then had tea, cause wake up already 3 plus p.m le, drank some soup, ate cereal with milk chocolate and some chocolate cake, very junk food right? Haahaa.... Watch T.V like nobody's business, watched from 4 to 10 p.m, came online and do the routine, sign in MSN, check mail and chat. I realise i'm living a lifestyle that i haven't being living for the past few months, holiday should be this way right? Slack n slack!

Will i spend my day doing this again? Yes! Heehe, i have spotted some rubbish shows to watch, gonna spend my day watching tv and sleep, before going back to hall on Tuesday! Tuesday going to be a busy day, first, going to school, SDE, to do up the sports comm notice board, then head back to hall for a meeting at night, nothing much to look forward to except maybe, my trip to Hong Kong on 22nd december!!! Yeah! Oh yes, another thing, count down to my birthday, hmm 4 days away? Hahaa, shall enjoy my life of being a teenager for this 4 days! I'm still 19, still 19, still 19...heehee....

I miss OAC days... miss the people, miss the activities.... although used to grumble alot last time, i really miss it now.. miss all the training, those that people deem as inhuman trainings, trainings that gave us the memories, memories that all OACians share.... miss PTs especially, miss the bodyaches that the training gave me, miss all the fun, the games, especially rubgy! As my favourite song goes," won't you please come back to me..." Memories please flood my mind... please come back to me....

happi_cat @ 6:05 PM

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Sunday, December 05, 2004

first blog entry....

Hmm... my first ever blog entry in my life! Alot of people have asked me, ting....why don't you blog... well my reply will be, " don't want to let people know about my life." So why do i suddenly blog? Ha.. cause i'm v bored now, nobody is talking to me online.

First entry talk about something general. If anyone were to ask me to describe my life, i'll describe it as a glass of plain water, plain as it is, if u try hard enough you'll be able to taste the slight sweetness or biterness in that glass of plain water...

What have i done the whole of today? Thats a question i like to ask myself every night. During school term it'll be, have i revise my lectures? Print out lecture notes? Done my tutorial? During holidays i'll ask myself whether i have enjoyed my holidays? Done some meaningful stuff? Or wasted my time away?

Well, today my reply is i have enjoyed myself, went out with my grandma n mum to chinatown. Long time since i went out with them. Bought a few pairs of socks n a new water bottle for myself. My mum bought 2 new t-shirts and my grandma bought 2 new shirt. Had dinner at Smith street, nice food there, too bad dad was not with us, gonna bring him there another time.

Finally one sunday that i can really rest and relax at home. Its been a long semester, usually have to go back to hall for hall play. Tommorrow i'm going to rest and stone at home. Going back to school on tuesday and coming home again on thursday. Friday is my birthday, going to stay at home and stone, thats my birthday plan every year... haahaa. My mum going to prepare food, hee. Hope i have good food on that day. Think first entry quite long already... thats all for now...

happi_cat @ 5:06 PM

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